You got me chasing honey bees

It's funny, you don't really notice yourself getting older, and all of a sudden you look at photos and realize you look all grown up....One day you're all baby-faced and then, a few years later, you look like an adult.






I can't figure out if I like it or not. I mean, not how I look, which is fine as always (we don't really get a say in such things, so why lament), but looking like a....grown up. I constantly meet people (not anyone reading this or any of my friends, since I don't make passive aggressive comments like that, plus I have really attractive friends & family) who I'm convinced are ten years older than me and then I find out they're around my age.

Of course, a lot of it is the social cues you send out based on the way you look/dress. I do wonder if I'm supposed to be dressing like a "grown up" now.


But, it just goes to show the disparity between how we perceive ourselves and how others perceive us.

I don't really dress like a kid but I don't exactly dress like a Banana Republic model.


In a way, I like not being a kid, because when you're 20, you can sort of rely on just being sort of cute and young, and when you're older, you really try to create interesting things and amass interesting experiences. It becomes increasingly imperative to have something of consequence to say.

It is funny, I do remember feeling so shy and intimidated when I was 19 compared to how I am now. I like that I feel confident enough to have fun with lots of different people and assert myself.

But it is weird how in the space of, oh, two years, people go from patting you on the head and saying things like "oh, you have time. you're young" to expecting things of you and treating you like an adult.